Today is the first day of school for the girls. Every year, it makes me sad, only because I am so amazed at how fast they grow. This year, I was sad but didn't cry, and had an additional thought in my head: I won't get to share milestones like the first day of school with Olivia. Of course, I already knew this, it was no surprise. Every "first" Aubrey and Elli have has been different since last July and will forever be different for the rest of our lives.
I think this helps me appreciate life and what we are given, and I am thankful. My heart hurts some times more than others. Right now, it hurts.